unfettered thoughts

am i a man or a woman?

neither. gender is a social construct based on the roles people fulfil in a society. more like a ceo or a cfo in a company. the social role i see myself fulfil is of a homemaker. i am boudi. the hot wife of your elder brother in a bengali para. you can watch but you can’t touch. and i’ll be like your second mother to whom you can talk about the life you don’t tell your mother to.

so what have i got inside my pants?

regrets, pieces of a letter i’ll never post, kaalboishaakhi, hopefully a knife.

like am i amab or afab?

if you have to use medical/therapy language to know what genitals i have, then i wish death upon you.

what is my old name?

oh you mean my legal name? that’s between me, the government, and the banks. need to use an alias for those. can’t trust the government.

you meant my real name?

depends on who you ask.

do i have a penis?

questions are $100, flashings are $250 with a signed consent form.

do i have a vagina?

questions are $100, flashings are $250 with a signed consent form.

when did i know i am trans?

i think if your individual experience, expression, and expectations do not match with what society dictates you to have, then you are trans.

in that way i knew i am trans as long as i had sense. always wanted to have boobs. i think they’re magical. like you can lie down on one, and your worries will go away. also, boobs look funny. but are also soft stressballs that fit in your hands. i want them so bad. i didn’t have the language to express. or the courage.

when did i come out then?

from where?

the closet?

you do know narnia isn’t real, right? it’s a story.

oh you meant when i told the world?

i don’t remember, facebook deleted my account.

so do i know deadname because they’re also like me?

never heard that name in my life.

was i born in the wrong body?

no, just the wrong century.

what do i mean?

body dysphoria is a result of white patriarchal beauty standards

how do i have sex?

ideally under someone, on a bed. but i’m generally open to other positions and places if i like my partner.

you think i’ll never be a real man/woman?

you know there are these dogs, that are very possessive of their toys, because that’s what they had from their birth. there are other options, but they only want that specific toy. if their master gets them a new toy, they bark and throw it away, even though it was more ideal for them, they’d stick with the old torn destroyed toys. and then there are some people who’d go like: “awww so cute”. no ma’am that’s unhealthy attachment.

it’s probably a phase?

absolutely, i’m hoping it catches on. do you wanna join? we have better fashion sense.

you always wanted to fuck a tranny?

no babe, you actually wanted to get fucked by a tranny. bent over. here is some ketamine.

do you have to pay me for sex?

tips are always appreciated. why get disappointed for free?

what do i do?

stay delulu 24*7

am i attracted to you?

you should buy a mirror to avoid embarrassing yourself in the future.

how do i pee?

sitting down. only uncivilised barbarians pee standing.

but trans women shouldn’t be in sport?

i thought the purpose of sports was to reach the peak human physical potential. i personally think gender division in sports is dumb. all humans should be clumped together. what’s the use of having two bests in two categories?

am i xx or xy?

hopefully xxxy. i’ll get paid to get researched on myself then. idk need to get a burr body test done that i have been postponing forever.

might add more later idk